I'm Done Playing Small

Reflections on a 13-hour flight to Japan

I’m done playing small.

I have seen my potential.

I have had visions of everything I could be, create, write, and build through psychedelics, breathwork, and dreams,

And it pisses me off that I have not done many of the things I know I’m meant to do!

(Yes, I know external things and achievements do not define my worth.)

(Yes, I know my true nature is infinite love.)

But how am I to live with myself in full love and embodiment, knowing my heart desires to write books, create music, host festivals and retreats, build transformational businesses and communities, and architect a real-life School of Eden and co-living center, without having the courage to pursue these things full throttle with no brakes?

I contemplated a deep question on a podcast the other day with my friends Danny Miranda and Nick Sweeney:

What if I died right now?

Would I be content with dying today, given what I have currently done in this life?

The answer was a clear, resounding, NO!

Thinking of it almost brought me to tears.

There is so much I know I am meant to do on this earth that I haven’t yet! I want to write books. I want to build world-shattering communities. I want to get married, find my soul partner, and build a family. I am not the slightest bit content or satisfied with what I have accomplished in this life.

This brought up another question I’ve been pondering:

What if I never reached my potential because I lived my entire life out of fear, complacency, being realistic, and clinging to security?

Yes, I’m 23.

Yes, I theoretically have time.

But I know that line of thinking is a trap, and while there is time, nothing is guaranteed!

Before I know it, I’ll be 50, looking back, and wondering where the time went!

I don’t want to look back at 50 and regret not taking the shots to become everything my 23-year-old self knows I can be!

I believe this current incarnation is especially special.

I believe I (and likely you as well) have never been this awake and this aware at this age in any lifetime in all of history up to this moment.

I increasingly get the feeling that this incarnation may be the last.

We have been blessed with the internet, AI, and the opportunity to be born into the consciousness revolution and the Age of Aquarius.

We cannot squander this opportunity!

I do not want to squander this opportunity out of the illusion of fear!

And because I have seen the height of who I could be, what I could create, and what the next evolution of humanity will be like, I feel it is my duty to bring my visions into manifestation. Not only to myself, but to my family, friends, humanity, and God. I believe I have seen these massive visions because I am meant to be a vessel to inspire massive change in the world. But doing so requires completely transcending the illusion of fear and fully owning who I know in my heart and soul I’m meant to be.

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I have seen a lot.

I believe I have the gift of sight and foresight.

This gift is both a blessing and a curse.

On one hand, I can see things before they happen. I get downloads and visions in my mind’s eye that guide me on the exact next step to take every single day. I can see the business equivalent of a metaphorical 70-yard touchdown pass developing in the distance from before the play begins. I can see a 20-year-old NBA player and instantly know he could become an All-Star or a future Hall-of-Famer if he reaches his potential. In the same way, I see that for myself. And I don’t want to become a metaphorical Andrew Wiggins or Johnny Manziel (no offense, Andrew or Johnny).

But the gift of sight also comes with the curse of brutal self-awareness. I’ve seen the height of my potential. But I also see the reality of my current circumstances. I’m still in college. I’m still weighed down by class and bullshit classwork. I’m still doing freelance work on the side to pay the bills.

These things occupy time and energy, and take me away from my north star. Anger arises, which I project outwardly at the world and at God, while simultaneously knowing my circumstances are of no one’s doing but my own. I am the one who has dug himself into financial holes. I have voluntarily put myself back in college to play football. I am the one who has lacked wisdom, calculation, and focus in business and finances. I am owning all of my decisions and shortcomings so that I can transcend them and actualize my highest potential.

I also often wish my own personal timeline took precedent over God’s. I want it all to happen NOW. Simultaneously. The books. The podcasts. The retreats. The festivals. Building a real-life School of Eden. My higher self knows it will take time. But my current self wants it to move FASTER.

I have been increasingly feeling an intense desire to FOCUS. I have been receiving dreams and visions to cut out people, places, and habits that aren’t serving my vision. My childhood best friend appeared in my dream and told me to stop smoking weed and focus. It resonated deeply. My next evolution is stepping away from cannabis, Snapchat, and feeling bad about not responding to people or giving them my time when I know the energy exchange isn’t mutual. If I want to create and build what I feel I am destined to create, then the things that don’t serve that vision have to go.

It is time to hone in on the north star and transcend that which is no longer serving me.

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I’m writing this on a 13-hour flight to Thailand.

I LOVE these types of flights.

The cross-planetary journey always feels like a “pivot point” in the saga of my life.

I feel myself, my energy, my aura, my focus, and my life shifting in real time.

As I sit here writing this letter, listening to the Interstellar Soundtrack, building and outlining projects, and beginning to see beyond this year, I feel invigorated with life-force energy, clarity, and infinite possibility.

When I get into this state of mind, I feel in my core that I can be anyone and anything I wish to be.

I feel alive, free, and powerful.

It is time I step into my power - and OWN IT.

No more playing small.

No more avoiding my visions.

No more shorting my potential.

After months of falling into and out of alignment, a trip to Austin filled with deep chats and synchronicities reconnected me to my north star and my true nature.

It’s time to stop playing the video game of life from the energy of “trying to get by.”

Fuck all that.

It’s time to reach for my 99 potential and absolute liberation.

If you want to join me on this journey, subscribe to this newsletter, send me a message, and tell me what the next evolution looks like for you.

We go further together than we do alone.

It is time to transcend.

Thanks for reading.

Love ya lots,

Jack